Lying in bed

Im off work at the moment - lying in bed.

I feel like the rest of the world is going on with their life and mine is standing still. I cant even get dressed properly. It strips the freedom away. My work is being great, they are trying to be sympathetic, however when I say I cant get dressed because my arms wont move the way I need them too, I can hear in their voices that they dont understand.

I am lucky to have an amazing little brother (I have 4 brothers but my younger one lives in the same city) He brings me around a weeks worth of soup so that I do not have to cook when I can get home from work, I can just jam something in the microwave and dinner is ready with no effort. Thank god for him.

Im going into hospital on Monday - I have to get some tests done on my left elbow. I have lost almost all movement in it.

This has turned into a rant - but that is all I feel capable of doing. Just took my cocktail of medication - my sore tummy should be not much more than half an hour away - it sucks that they give you medication to help you with one aspect and it makes you sick in another.

I am going to sign off now beore I get you all into my mood.Thanks for reading

I hope you guys are feeling good today :)

Sarah