Im in need of a pick me up

It's a beautiful July morning in the rockies. The mountains are green, the rivers are full, the flowers are in full bloom and I've been in remission for about 4 four weeks now....So why am I feeling so blue.  I can usually smile my way through the down periods but I just can't seem to shake this off. The bigger picture just seems to keep getting bigger and bigger and BIGGER. I just turned 51 last friday, I'm in the middle of a divorce with a man that was recently diagnosed with Parkinsons disease. I feel like I'm just running out of steam. I'm so forgetful, oh, I just get so flustered with the whole mess!!!  Is anyone out ther getting forgetful ?  It could be just my age and oh yea..menopause.  Let's throw that in there, like I don't have enough already to deal with.. Whatever does not kill you makes you strong...I don't think he ever wrestled with RA  LOL Thanks for listening, I know you all understand!