Today I looked up and saw such a beautiful blue sky. I mean this true and clear blue that with all the rain we have had here in Florida I all but forgot we had. I think I do that in my real life too.. I see nothing but dark rain clouds and forget that blue sky is just under the surface. I am feeling somewhat better today than i have been. I am headed back to the Dr soon to see what can be done (if anything) as the Humira seems to wear off just 3 days shy of my next injection.. But it really works the rest of the time. as long as i remember my Celebrex every day. Weather has been a huge symbol for me lately. I see myself in the unstable meteorological events that seem to thrive in this state. One minute it's nothing but blue skies and i am playing hard with my kids, Then the skies darken, wind picks up speed, and a crack of thunder and the skies open up with a down pour. I'm back in bed laying flat, with not enough strength to turn the lamp light off.
I know I need to find that middle so i stop hurting myself but i am by nature just like Florida weather, an all or nothing kinda girl. <sigh>
I too have always been an all or nothing type of girl. I also said that I would not ever let Rheumatoid Arthritis slow me down. I have slowed down though. I don't think of it as giving into the disease. I like to think of it more as slowing down to let my body fight the disease. I still have my couch days when I absolutely can't do anything. But when I can I am constantly doing things. I started planting flowers recently. I have a three acre yard, so gardening is perfect. It forces me to slow down and I love it. You can still be an all or nothing girl, but take it down just a tone to let you body rest, heal and fight. Keep up the great attitude, and remember those sunny beautiful days are what we with RA live for. Good luck and best wishes.