Cloudless Days

Today I looked up and saw such a beautiful blue sky. I mean this true and clear blue that with all the rain we have had here in Florida I all but forgot we had. I think I do that in my real life too.. I see nothing but dark rain clouds and forget that blue sky is just under the surface. I am feeling somewhat better today than i have been. I am headed back to the Dr soon to see what can be done (if anything) as the Humira seems to wear off just 3 days shy of my next injection.. But it really works the rest of the time. as long as i remember my Celebrex every day. Weather has been a huge symbol for me lately. I see myself in the unstable meteorological events that seem to thrive in this state. One minute it's nothing but blue skies and i am playing hard with my kids, Then the skies darken, wind picks up speed, and a crack of thunder and the skies open up with a down pour. I'm back in bed laying flat, with not enough strength to turn the lamp light off.

I know I need to find that middle so i stop hurting myself but i am by nature just like Florida weather, an all or nothing kinda girl. <sigh>