Yet another sleepless night is passing me by, and there's not too much I can do about it.  If I were to take an additional sleeping pill, then I would not be able to make it to my morning class.  This is an important class that only has 5 more sessions.  So, I find myself awake, but hoping to get a bit more rest before class.  I've had this problem with insomnia for years, but before I was actually diagnosed with RA and FM it was just written off as the 'growing teenage years' with irregular sleep patterns.  Oh well.

I'm glad I'm back on all my medications, but am still saddened that I have to use so many different methods to control and manage my constant pain. I worry about addiction/dependency because my family has a significant streak of problems with alcoholism and general dependency problems.  I always talk to my rheumatologist about this, during each visit, and he assures me that he's not as worried because I bring this up with him each visit.  I just wish there was no pain, and then there would be no problem!  If life were only so simple.. 

I'm happy to be back to a functional member of society, but am also a bit concerned with a trip to Europe I'm taking this summer with my cousin who just graduated from High School.  We're just planning on wandering for 3 weeks, but that also means that I cannot take my Enbrel for 3 weeks.  Hopefully it won't be a problem...  hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep!