Finals Flare Up.

Hey there,

 

My name is Liz and well, am not totally sure how this works, posting a comment etc. If everyone is able to read this, then hi all, and if this is only going to Nicole, hello as well:).

 

I stumbled on this site while researching the latest in pain meds/muscle relaxers I've been perscribed. I've spent some time reading through the stories, from all different women/people, and am somewhat shocked to see how different they are, yet how they are all too much the same. To read over the things others have said about their situation, I can't help but become even more angered.

 

I, myself, began the journey to the diagnoses that is RA one year and two months ago with "bronchitis". That lead to "this that and the other", sinus issues, fevers, aches and pains etc,  then finally to pleurisy almost a year to the date. And just like so many of you out there posting on this site, a site I am more than sure we never would/could have imagined we would one day be posting on, I am a 28 year old female. Physically fit, active and happy. More importantly, thought my life was finally headed in a grown up, on my own, sucessful direction. I own a horse(aka money pit), and of course my two dogs, and was also a full time ER vet tech so I did little resting and was happiest that way. ( And yes...I like animals a bit:). And then this hits and it seems, at times as there has been NO remission yet for me, that all is lost. And then to read about how many more, (not that I really thought I was the only one), are there struggling in the same ways I am...and so many of us so young. Just not fair... I have to say I am most impressed to see how many, those months from graduating from Uni. and other such situations similar, there are that seem to be at an apparent calm. This is something I, almost more than anything, need help with, is getting over this anger at the RA, at my body for having it even. It doesn't help that I have been in a state of denial until maybe 3 months ago. I kept thinking, it, along with the pleurisy would surely go away as did all the other infections I've had in the past. I thought I had been holding my own for the last while then yesterday afternoon the pain in my chest came shooting in from out of nowhere, (knocks the wind out of me from the pain), can't breathe except for tiny little breaths that are absolute torture, can't talk and can't really move. (The pleurisy is direclty related to the RA I should mention but most people don't have it longer than two weeks...I'm lucky:)

 

Anyway, I'm now rambling on but would love to hear from anyone who has delt with or is dealing with well, being ****** this has happened to you. Not to say we can't get through it..I'll be damned if this is going to ruin my life entirely, but it would just be so good to hear from any of you out there who know what I'm talking about. I know you would have known what I was talking about by simply saying "I have RA", but like I said, I'm mad, and well, a woman went on ranting anyway. I feel a bit better though:)

 

Wish all of you the best, and it would be great to hear from any of you, angry or not, at some point. I will registed as a user for this site tomorrow(need to go to bed now), but feel free to email me at letoikaya@yahoo.com should you care to exchange email "war stories", or simply just to chat about the turns life takes sometimes.

 

Take caare-Elizabeth

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Nicole-

Wow, I am sorry to hear about your recent flare and I too am going to college and experiecing a FLARE, everything you said really struck me. The frustration in dealing with physical limitations and the having to admit it to others. UGH, and the PAIN is extreme I too am going in to see my Dr.  I hope you feel better soon.

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I know what its like to have flare ups at the most inconvenient times, especially while in university.  Seriously, its awful.  I hate telling my teachers though that I have RA because sometimes they just give me a pity party, which is not what I need.  What are you studying? 
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