Finals Flare Up.

Of course I'm not really surprised to be having a flare-up right now, while I'm in the middle of finals, but all the mental effects of RA coupled wtih the now crippling physical effects can really drive a girl mad.  I've had a sudden plunge these past few weeks, for the worse and am going to the Student Health center in the AM because of significant unexplained weight loss, fever, irregular periods and PAIN!  I had already scheduled an appointment w/ my rheumatologist in 2 weeks, when I'm home for xmas break.  But when you have 2 term papers due and have zero motivation, it's rather hard to perservere.  I'm worried about my health, but I am more so frustrated than anything else.

I had been doing so well, and was pleased with my drug regiment, and now I've crashed.  Gotta love the roller-coaster that is RA.  Especially trying to email professors and apologize for not meeting deadlines.  I am hard on myself because I don't want to believe that I physically can't get my work done.  I am in the overwhemed/stressed phase of the semester, and hope that tomorrow's snow will bring me joy here in DC.

Thanks for reading my ranting words...  -nicole