To all those who have kept up with me and the onset of RA, the downs and the more downs, the emotions, the anger, the not knowing, you will be glad to know i am finally laughing. Laughing you say, well what else is there at this point. Let me explain what finally brought me to laughter. I am getting married saturday, the stress, the cancellation of two brides maids, the cake cancellation the hair cancellation, the pastor no show all was too much. I had a flare in my back last week that took the cake, UGH!!!! It has moved back to my hands and wrists now, and I am tolerating it better after the back flare. Give me my hands anyday....

I took my dress in to have it cleaned and put a corset back in it. It fit, i just wanted a little extra breathing room. Long story short, when I got the dress yesterday, it was 4 sizes smaller then when I took it in. YES every brides nightmare. My fiance called another seamstress, GOD BLESS HER!!! who is able to do miralces and make it right.

I watched as everyone around me watch me as to how i was handling this. Knowing all the stress of the wedding already and all the mishaps so far, they were sure I was going to lose it to all ends. BUT in the midst of this, i found myself at peace, and yes i was upset, but i have alternatives. I found joy in this amongst the pain, and the stress, and the WHAT NOW?? I was at peace. I watched as everyone tip toed, trying to say the right thing, really now what is the right thing to say when the dress is not wearable. Watching them trying to make light, and find that right thing to say, became funny in a wierd sort of way.

It feels good, to finally LAUGH again, and not stress out, get all up tight, cry another tear, for today anyhow. I must say it wouldnt of been possible to see lighter side of this RA and all the other stuff with out such great people and posts on this site, being vulnerable and sharing their inner most thoughts and feelings.

So for today i SMILE and pray the Pastor shows up and I get married without any more hithces!!!

Thanks for letting me smile and share!

Laurie