it has been awhile..

Hello everyone,

I know it has been so long since I have post here. I have been SO tired..

I am to scard to start Remecade, so I have been just trying to lower my stress and really take it easy. I am also going to be a Grandmom! My son and his girlfriend are having a baby. She is 12 weeks along and includes me in everything. I went to her ultra sound last week and the nice lady there gave me my own picture! My son and his girlfriend are living with me and when they have the baby they will still be here. I am looking forward to a baby in the house :) Yes I am a little worried about how much I am going to be able to do with the baby. wil I be able to pick the baby up and for how long. I saw ways I can pick up the baby using my arms more then my hand.

You know.. I know this RA is a life long road.. There are days I can not even move off the sofa. There are days where I am better and can move around better. These drugs out there will not cure this. I worry about what these drugs will do to my body in the long run. I have hope they will come out with beter drugs that do less harm. No matter what this is my life... You learn to deal with the pain and the things you an no longer do. I guess I am on the part of the road where I am not ready to take these bigger drugs, but knowing someday when I can no longer do so much more that I will take these drugs.

The metho still makes me so tired and off balance kind of dizzy. but you get use to it.

It will be a year in dec that I started with this. I am facing the fact that it does not just go away and you have to learn to deal with it and accept it for what it is. then move forward with it..

well I took my metho yesterday, so today is a headace and very tired.

I am going to lay down a little bit

Hugs everyone!

Sue