Have I lost hope yet?

Sometimes I feel hopeless, like I have no fight left in me.  I am in pain all of the time.  Everyone tells me I am too young to be this sick (I am 28), but this disease knows no age.  I got sick at 23 and have had no relief since.  I can't afford the biologics yet.  I do have a great support system though.  Sometimes I feel like I am a walking advertisement for rheumatoid arthritis.  My doctor says  I have a severe case and because I went so long without a diagnosis, the medications aren't able to combat my inflammation.  I bought my first walker last week to help me get around.  My husband was having to take off too much time at work because I couldn't walk.  But I really haven't lost hope yet.  I am getting ready to start with my pain management doctor, and I am starting the whole diet approach.  With this disease you have to have hope to survive.  Even if it's little.  What's my hope for now?  My hope is that I will be able to make it to my sons first soccer game of the year.  And I will!  Baby steps though...literally!

 

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