Sometimes I feel hopeless, like I have no fight left in me. I am in pain all of the time. Everyone tells me I am too young to be this sick (I am 28), but this disease knows no age. I got sick at 23 and have had no relief since. I can't afford the biologics yet. I do have a great support system though. Sometimes I feel like I am a walking advertisement for rheumatoid arthritis. My doctor says I have a severe case and because I went so long without a diagnosis, the medications aren't able to combat my inflammation. I bought my first walker last week to help me get around. My husband was having to take off too much time at work because I couldn't walk. But I really haven't lost hope yet. I am getting ready to start with my pain management doctor, and I am starting the whole diet approach. With this disease you have to have hope to survive. Even if it's little. What's my hope for now? My hope is that I will be able to make it to my sons first soccer game of the year. And I will! Baby steps though...literally!
Published On: January 22, 2008