I am a desperate woman fighting for my life. I am fighting to live my life. I am fighting to not be consumed by pain and despair. I am fighting for my sanity in the midst of a disease that tries to take all that away from me.
The hardest fight I have ever fought!
As you are probably well aware, Rheumatoid Arthritis is a constant fight and a constant struggle. If you allow it to, RA can take everything away from you. It can take your happiness and your hopes. It can take your dreams. It can take your mobility.
When I was first diagnosed you could have definitely said that I was losing my fight against RA. I cried all day every day. Every day was a “couch day” for me. You know, the kind of day that you want to lie on the couch all day long with the covers over your head, cry, and wish away RA. Rheumatoid Arthritis had taken away my happiness. I never left the house… EVER! I stayed home and dwelled on the fact that I had an extremely painful, incurable disease. Rheumatoid Arthritis took my friends from me. I lost my career as a court reporter due to the damage in my fingers and being unable to type because of swelling. Rheumatoid Arthritis had taken my dreams. I became very withdrawn, unable to have any sort of meaningful relationship with my husband and kids. How could I have a relationship when they didn’t understand what this disease was doing to me? Rheumatoid Arthritis took away my love.
Fighting for my life!
Yes, I am desperate woman fighting for my life! Every day is a fight with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Nothing comes easily to me in dealing with RA. I have to fight for everything that is worth it. I fight for happiness and love. I fight for my dreams and my goals. I fight for relationships with my friends and family. I FIGHT FOR MY LIFE!
I have learned many things while living with RA. One of the biggest lessons I have learned is that Rheumatoid Arthritis can only take from you what you allow it. And if you’re not careful, it can take everything from you. Don’t ever let anyone tell you to sit back and take it! You have to fight for those things that matter. Yes, it is much easier to sit back and watch RA take everything from you, but what do you have left then? So you fight! And yes, it may be the hardest fight you have ever fought but it’s worth it. So what are you willing to fight for? Me, you ask? EVERYTHING!
Rheumatoid Arthritis can only take from you what you let it, so continue your fight and know that you are never alone. We are all fighting for our life!
Published On: April 28, 2008