Rheumatoid Arthritis, another way to say lonely?
Oh, I remember it well, the loneliness that RA brings. Maybe I know it well because I still live with it everyday. It’s the feeling that no one could ever possibly understand. It’s the feeling that there is no one cares and that we all seem to have been forgotten in the big scheme of things. RA is the feeling of, well, being alone!
I remember when people who really cared used to ask me what it was like, “What is life with RA like?" I would get so upset, and most of the time it would make me cry. The question always made me feel lonelier. At that time I had no words to describe what life with rheumatoid arthritis was like. All I knew was that it was lonely. Unless they lived it, they could never know it. Rheumatoid Arthritis is the loneliness of desperately wanting to fit in, but feeling like there was never a place for you. Rheumatoid Arthritis is the loneliness of having a big secret that is eating you up on the inside, yet not being able to share it. Life with RA is… LONELY!!
I didn’t just feel alone. I felt alone among my friends. I felt alone among my family. Now that’s a lonely feeling. It took me forever to realize that I wasn’t alone, well, not completely alone anyway. I read the statistics and the articles. I always knew that there were many more like me out there, but yet I still felt alone. I got online and looked up personal experiences from people with RA. I would read their stories and cry. They were lonely like me. They felt the same way I did. And it made me realize that I was never truly alone. There were other just like me out there struggling to find purpose in their lives and a reason to all their insanity. They were out there searching for the same thing I was, a reason to belong… anywhere.
Please remember that you are never alone, and that if you are ever having a lonely day we are just a few clicks on the computer away. If you need support from us, just ask. There are always days where we all just need a little extra support. We all are searching for the same answers to the same questions. We are all looking for answers to our insanity. So please remember that we are all here for each other, and that we will make it through our life with RA and…You are never alone!
Published On: May 12, 2008