My Semi-normal Christmas Wish List
Christmas is supposed to be one of the most wonderful times of year. It is filled with family gatherings, shopping for loved ones, and many other christmas activities and traditions. But, for some rheumatoid arthritis sufferers such as myself, Christmas can also be one big flare. So this year, after many requests by friends and family, I have composed my christmas wish list to share with all.
I ask for help
This christmas I ask for help. It's not something I do often, but it is something I need. I may need an extra arm to help me to the tree or an extra hand in the kitchen. I need your help not because I am lazy, but because I am fatiqued from my medications and from staying up late the night before desperately trying to make sure everything will be perfect for christmas. I ask you don't wrap my presents too tight or with too many ribbons. Please understand that it's not that I don't appreciate the effort you put into making the present beautiful and just right for me, but that my hands are painful and that my fingers may not work well enough to untie the ribbon. This christmas I ask for patience and understanding. I may not be able to get up and hug each and every one of you after every present I open. It is not because I don't love you or the present, but because my knees are swollen and my feet too painful for steps.
Tears of joy
This christmas I ask for love. Though I may cry from pain, this christmas if you see tears coming from my eyes please know that they are tears of joy for I am so happy to be surrounded by the ones I love. Don't fuss over me, a big hug will do. This christmas I ask for joy. Please don't assume that just because I may be in pain or may not be able to do all the things you can do, that I dont want you to enjoy christmas and be as happy as you can. This christmas I ask for faith. I ask for faith in me and faith in a christmas miracle that I may be able to do what needs to be done to make this the best christmas ever. This christmas I ask for smiles. Because though you may not realize it, watching the ones I love smile can help me through the worst pain or trials in my life.
Hope keeps me going
This christmas I ask for hope. I ask for hope for the new year, and hope for a new beginning with this disease. You see, hope is what keeps me going, and if there is ever a time that I can have hope it is at christmas. At christmas I sit there and observe each and every one of you. I watch the smiles on your face, the joy in your voice, and the laughter that comes with the gathering of love. These are the things that make it worth while for me. Struggling through pain, medicationss, injections and flares are so unpleasant for me, but the miracles christmas brings makes all these things bearable. With christmas comes hope, and that's what you have given me.
So this christmas the best present you could ever give me is you. The ones I love bring me the strength I need to make it through life with this disease. The love you bring me makes it possible to smile through the pain. The faith in christmas you bring gives me faith in myself. Your patience and understanding makes it easy for me to swallow my silly pride and ask for help. And the hope, well...The hope will carry me through my lifetime. To all my friends and family, this christmas I have everything I want. Merry Christmas to all my Health Central friends, fellow rheumatoid arthritis sufferers, and other friends and family!
Published On: December 23, 2008