It is so true that our pain is not visible. I have been lucky enough to not have to show a lot of disability other than hand supports and the ankle surgery I had 2 years ago. However, just today, one of my co-workers said, when I pushed the button for the door to open automatically, "You don't open the door for yourself?" and I said, no, after raking leaves last weekend (which i did tell her about that I was amazed to be able to do it), when the acupuncture treatment wore off, "I've been in a lot of pain this week! and also had to cut down on painkillers." They know I'm on meds, but seeing doesn't convey at all what is really going on. . . if they only knew! There is no way to describe that pain if they haven't had it.
It's good you want to have something productive to do. But I'm curious, are you getting any treatment for your RA? If not, is that something you need to look into, so you could be more mobile? Maybe still work from home in some way, or even try a different activity, such as something creative that might be rewarding to you personally, even if it doesn't bring in an income immediately.
There is money for 'vocational rehab' for people that need re-traing due to disability. I'm not sure if it's state or federal money - I think it's state - New YOrk's program is called VESID - Vocational and Education Services for Individuals with Disability, or something like that. See what your state might have to offer. Maybe they would also have advice about what fields you might have some opportunity in.
Thanks for the reply.Yes I live in Tennessee so I have what I feel to be less than avg healthcare.I have been through a couple of rheumatologists.My blood level is in the 200-300.I am on at least 10 drugs including morphine.Soon to be rid of the morphine.I have a short list on my profile of the drugs I take.This is a frustrating,deceptive disease for sure.
My own wife does not get it at times."I just saw you up doing the dishes so why can't you get a job?" They don't get that you pay dearly for doing the most mundane simple things.My fingers seem to be the only things spared by this disease.Only two have been affected at all. I will look into state funds for training although I will not hold my breath,it is Tenn.