Hi Jessie,
I have been in almost the exact same situation and have had to make the same hard choices, so I thought I'd give you a reply since it took me a long time to take this step myself.
I also have seronegative RA, along with fibro and an autoimmune liver disease. I was diagnosed with the RA about 6 years ago and I've been fighting it ever since. Over the past year I've had a lot more progression and have had to use a cane constantly and a walker sometimes at home but never in public because I was too embarrassed (and probably did more damage because of my stubborness). However, within the past 6 months I've had so much pain in my shoulders as well as my hips, knees and feet that walking more than 20-30 feet has become almost impossible and incredibly painful and taxing. Slowly, I watched as all the things I used to love to do left my life and I felt like I was losing pieces of myself with every activity that I could not longer do or enjoy. We bought a manual wheelchair but I couldn't push myself more than a few feet because of my shoulder and hands - I had to rely on my husband to push me and he's not in the best of health either.
I've had to cut my work hours back to half but I am one of the lucky ones who have an employee based disability insurance that helps me retain enough income to live on. But work was taking everything out of me. My friends and my doctor suggested I get a mobility chair and I, of course, resisted. But my husband put it to me this way one night, would you rather sit at home and never be able to go out and do anything with me or your friends/family, or would you rather suck it up, get a motorized wheechair and be able to go to the mall, the park, to the movies, to festivals, concerts, etc....?? He emphasized that the chair was there to help on days and in places I couldn't walk, but I wasn't confined to it, so my ability to not use it was also still there. I couldn't argue with that, so I started the process with my doctor to get the chair through my insurance.
Now at work I can get up and make my own copies, not worry about the pain of the long walk to the bathroom, get coffee and visit co-workers without pain or the extraordinary effort to walk to those people and places. I can browse through the giant bookstore on my own when my husband and I go or stroll through a mall or local fair... things that I've been unable to do for at least 3-4 years. I have sucked up a bit of my pride and admitted to the world that I do need help because RA has taken something from me... but my new chair has given me back a piece of myself that I lost a good while back and that feeling is immeasurable.
Go with the chair, get your life back... YOU deserve it. :)
Good luck and God bless...
Hello V!! Thank you very much for your response. I appreciate your input very much! People that don't understand what we are feeling are hard to talk to about this stuff, right! I have problems in every joint including my jaws..I am a very outgoing person and I love to get out and about as much as possible. I am limited a lot more than I used to be and I start hurting very quickly anymore so I am trying to save myself the misery of having to fight through the pain and enjoy being out whenever I can. I believe that I have had RA for a while too. I went through a ton of doctors even to Mayo Clinic and they diagnosed me fibro..but three months later I became very ill and was sent to a rheumatologist here where I live again. Since my bloodwork never showed anything, this doc was smart enough to do x-rays on my joints and found that I had inflammation and erosions already, thats what lead to the diagnoses finally. I think I am going to maybe try a cane first and see how that goes. I know of someone that has used 2 canes because they did not want to use a walker. My only problems is that my shoulder, hands, fingers and back are also painful so if I put pressure on them they hurt too! I hate that you have RA too, but I am grateful that you know exactly what I am taling about! I appreciate your input so much...makes me feel so much better you just don't know!!
Thank you again!