Angie,    I hope today is looking a little bit better for you.  The anxiety and the anger can be so consuming!  Intellectually, I know that being angry isn't going to help me - in fact, I know stress worsens a flare - but it's so hard not to be angry and frustrated with this disease.  It's hard to accept that the old me has turned into this person with RA.     I'm really glad we're all here for one another.  It definitely helps to hear the perspectives other people struggling to come to grips with it.  Moreso, it helps to hear people like Lene and V who have not only accepted RA as a part of their lives but manage to thrive and be happy again.  We'll get there, Angie.  We've got to!