Delusions of Grandeur and Paranoia

Do your voices persist? If not, when did they leave you?

Regards,

Lori

I had a similar experience when I was 14. 

A friend and I experimented with a book called Necronomicon and we came to believe that we each had demons that followed our bidding.  I walked around for several weeks thinking these demons would do anything I asked them, and gave them trivial tasks now and then to prove to me their loyalty.  Things like causing bad luck to others.  They were invisible to others, and I could not "see" them, but I knew where they were at all times in relation to my location.  My mother discovered this and she had a friend (who was extremely religious) come in and bless me and our house while talking in tongues. 

I never really heard the demons talk to me during this time, but I would get "feelings" of confirmations of yes/no to general questions I would ask of them.  Perhaps I got more than just yes or no replies from them, but I can't remember.  During this time I had obsessive compulsive tendencies that were terrifying (if I didn't touch objects in certain patterns, bad things would happen to me or my family).  I never sought or got psychiatric help for this.  After age 15, these problems almost completely disappeared.

I didn't have a relapse into schizophrenic-type thoughts until my early 20s.  At this point I became obsessed with thinking I was able to read the future.  Reading newspapers or watching television always came with an extremely strong sense of deja vu, and I could swear I had read or thought things just before actually seeing them in the paper or on the TV.  This led to all sorts of crazy thinking, along the lines of time travel and delusions of grandeur.  

After a couple of years I was able to (by myself with no help from anyone or any medication) -- able to talk "sense" into myself.  I realized that these grandiose thoughts were not justified in logic.  I concentrated on "finding holes" in the logic of my crazy theories.  In time, I proved to myself these crazy things just could not be true.  

I still experience deja vu frequently, along with other odd things, but I don't any longer attach to these experiences any wild or fantastic ideas.  I just let the experiences flow, and if I notice something truly odd, I let myself notice it and ponder it for a few seconds, then I let it go without obsessing about it.