My son was a normal child.Loved living life fishing,hunting and camping.When he got his computer he seemd to change as a young adult.Then got into gothic which is none of our beliefs.He started saculding himself. Then told me he heard voice's I told him he needed to see a phyc. He wouldn't I found out later he tried to commit sucicide. He gothooked up with a girl who was into some santic crap and broke up with her..Found another and went to Wisconson thats when he really changed.He was a CNA and worked all the time. He came back home after 2 years and he has never been the same. Now he is in a Mental facility for schozpherina. As a mother I never new the signs and never in my dreams did I expect something like this for one of my childeren. He is getting medicines for it but has a long way to go before comming home. I went and seen him for the first time in 7 weeks.
He is my son but where is the child that was so happy.He seems so deep with in himself I can't find him.I know he is in there behind those so so sad eyes.He is going to be a father soon.And was so much looking forward to that but now he won't be around to see his son born..He always wrote books about vampires something he loved to do. Then the voices took over and were telling him what to do. I thank God everyday that he fought them back. HE is on Deogon and said it is helping.But he still has to stay until he is better..I wake up thinking about him and go to bed thinking of him.And I ask why not a day goes by that I don't ask myself what if or what did I do wrong.There was nothing I did it just a chemical imbalance in the brain. My bleeding heart still tells me if he hadn't gotten into this gothic garbage he would be just fine..It's like he has been brain washed and such a blank look on his face.
He is such a loveing young man that has changed before my eyes. I will love him till I leave this earth. And this will be his home always. I have no anwers to it but what I have learned from NAMI on the computer. I pray each and every day for anyone with MI.for God to interseed and give them a path to follow. And if their are parents out their I know the hell you are going through. It tears my heart out everyday not knowing what I can do for my son.Its and ach that won't go away.
moms_love
Dear Mom's Love,
You have come to a welcoming community of fellow travelers who have been down the road you're on now. We share in your hopes and struggles.
As someone diagnosed with schizophrenia, I can tell you without a doubt there is hope. It takes time. There are no shortcuts, guarantees or quick solutions.
Keep your eyes open for my "Expert's SharePosts" (Christina Bruni's) to post in the following three weeks. The posts will talk about things people need to know if they've been newly diagnosed, and also what their family members, such as mothers and fathers, need to know.
Check back soon.
Best wishes,
Chris