One of the more difficult things I deal with on a day to day basis is trying to interpret other people.  What do they want from me, what are they thinking, what the heck are they talking about?  Did someone just say something funny? (should I smile)  or something hurtful? 

I make it a goal to go out at least once every day. To someplace where I'll have to interact with at least one person.  A lot of the time it's just a stop at the store to pick up cigarettes or a soda.  Sometimes I'll do more. 

Today I went to a collectors store where I like to browse around and maybe pick up something inexpensive.  As I was waiting for someone to help me two of the people who work there were whispering about me... 'Is that guy weird or is it just me?'....'I'd tend to agree with that'.   They may have been talking about the weather, maybe.  But I KNOW that they weren't.  I know that I really couldn't hear their whispers, but I KNOW what they said.  So stressful and confusing.  Do I leave and never come back?  Do I ignore it, work on convincing myself that it was just me? or, God forbid, do I confront them (that never turns out well).   I actually took a fourth path today.  Yes, I am a bit weird to some people...so what. (it was harder to swallow than just saying that to myself, but it helped me to hang in there.  No running away.

I'm tempted to get one of those little spy earbuds that let you eavesdrop.  That would be funny.  Me running around trying to spy on all the spies...lol.  Oh God, keep me away from that.

On a good note.  The day was nice (weather) and I spent some time outside with the dog.  Too bad these are the shortest days of the year.