Quitting smoking....sort of.

I have been addicted to cigarettes since I was 15.   I have quit twice in the past (once for two years), but always find my way back to them.  Such comfort in the middle of a long night.  The warm glow, smoke trailing of the cigarette in a lively dance, and of course the nicotine. 

I've been sick with bronchitis for over a week and have defintely Not been enjoying my smokes.  Bad taste, sore airways.  So I decided to 'sort of' quit.  I took all of my cigarette money for the month (basically all the money I had after bills) and invested in an e-cigarette.  It's an electronic device that vaporizes small amounts of nicotine when you take a drag off the 'cigarette'.  The good is that there is no tar/smoke/carcinogens, it tastes pretty good, and you exhale water vapor (looks a little like smoke).  The bad is I'm still addicted to nicotine which is not a healthy thing of itself.

I would like to say that I'll use the device to wean myself off the nicotine and eventually quit.  I think that would be a lie.  I love my smoke breaks and rituals as well as the calm that the nicotine brings.  So I hope that at the least I'll be a little healthier and a lot less stinky.

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Well the clocks have turned and the weather has mostly broken so I've make a resolution to get exercizing again.  Walks in the park with the dog.  She loves it and I need it.

BTW, still hanging in there witht the Geodon, feeling better, and eating like a horse.