That last journal entry just made me sad, it's the truth and it just touches the tip of the iceberg of pain it represents.
The United States of America land built on genocide and slavery, did it ever end? I think not...Theories and suspicions, I think the USA government and the British monarchy were behind the rise of Adolf Hitler and the death camps to make money off all the sides of the war machine and the wholesale slaughter of millions, liquidating bank accounts, insurance fraud, clearing the land and pulling out gold teeth, and ways not even I can think of. When I was a child I blamed the general public of Germany now I think you can brainwash the general public into thinking whatever you want them to think. Ofcourse you can't fool all of the people all of the time. I don't fall for any of it. I know you can say I'm paranoid
schizophrenic...Pain...to spread Aids who does this but the most inhumane people on earth...And without thinking twice about it...To make more money that they don't even need...Criminally insane sociopaths...Darkness...we may aswell be living in the dark ages...
And the light...so much yoga in this world...the new age...the internet...
The epiphanny yesterday I went to the Holy Trinity church and took communion...the Reverend spoke of the earth being 4.5billion years old...and about all the meteorites hitting the planet with 5% water...and then it rained for 100's of million years...creating an atmosphere...the first forms of life algee like organisms who ate sunlight and there waste product was rock...anyway she went on to talk about Christ as being the light and his teachings...and we're suppose to share the light...the idea...the creation...with the rest of the world. It was inspiring
I stopped thinking the same old thoughts and had lunch with the congragation.
From a book by Louise L. Hay," I deserve joy...
Many of you believe that you deserve to live in an atmosphere of 'not good enough'. Start doing affirmations that you really deserve, and that you are willing to go beyond your parents and your early childhood limitations. Look in the mirror and say to yourself ,' I deserve all good.
I deserve to be prosperous. I deserve joy. I deserve love.'
Open your arms wide and say,' I am open and receptive. I am wonderful. I deserve all good. I accept.'
I feel a little better now...I have to constantly think these affirmations...I have to meditate every minute of every day...And if I have to I will...One thing I know for sure they haven't eaten up my life for their greater good...I never blamed most of the workers of the USA government who I know are also taxpayers that are being fleeced. It's a world wide Aids Axis Dragon with there hooks in everyones government consortium and family,brainwashing the general public, holding the whole planet hostage and turning it into one big concentration camp. Unfortunately our government is the most responsible.Why else wouldn't they vote for an International Criminal Court!
