At the outpatient clinic I was informed that I do not have any need for their services. I don't have a drug and alcohol problem, my "anxiety" is not diagnosable enough to warrant the anxiety group, I don't need med counseling. It was also told that I am bored.

So what is that I need or think I need? I was given the number for a therapist that specializes in my addiction. Speaking of addiction the intake worker told me that if I can overcome my addiction I would be fine....DUH!!!! The other suggestion was to volunteer.

I went to see a friend who works at the outpatient facility where I volunteered. He was no help.

I woke this morning feeling sick. My mind was racing, my body jumping. I had trouble reading, so I wrote some. I feel like I am in a steel cage.

The floor is coming along. I am going to work on it in a bit. Gotta keep the boredom away. The new furnance is in. It works good.


Ralph Waldo Emerson-"It was high counsel that I once heard given to a young person: Always do what you are afraid to do."

David