Better late than never...

Hi there

I haven't posted in forever.  But did want to give a quick update...I finally went to see my mom who lives in another state.  She has been in the same group home for two decades now.  They take good care of her...she is a part of their family.  I think they said she is taking Trazodone and...Geodon.  Are these good medications for schizophrenia?  Long ago she took the heavy duty drugs including Haldol.  Her hands shake now but I am not sure if this is due to the meds or just old age.  And she has diabetes.

It is always hard emotionally for me...to see her.  But she was pretty good this time...not agitated and she was calm and happy and...lucid.  Usually she thinks I am an imposter but...none of that talk this time.  She does think, however, that the group home manager dies each time he gives her a pill and then comes back as a different version of himself.  So evidently he is on his 75th reincarnation.  And...coincidentally...my mother will soon be 75.  Maybe there is a logical link there somewhere.

Took her out to her favorite restaurant...Red Lobster.  She likes shrimp.  And it was real nice. 

Not sure how many years she has left but...I want to see her more often.  She really tried her best as a mom.  It was hell...I can't lie but...hey...she loved me.  So that counts.  a lot. 

For anyone who has a parent, child, or sibling with schizophrenia...I know it is hard.  Please hang in there.  They are doing the best they can.  I used to get mad at her when I was a teen and...now I just view things as...she was and is a victim of this mental illness.  It was never her fault. 

I am tearing up here so...I better stop writing.  But just wanted to give an update.  Thanks for listening.