Intentions with a common aim, but words sometimes (mis)fire like arrows and hurt in error....??

HI Chris. Thanks for sharing with us.

I am thankful for this site. I am trying to let go of this situation I have caused. I guess I was sensitive and wounded.

I know I totally misunderstood and jumped to irrational conclusions.

It is my intention to help and not judge. I failed at both.

I will learn from this, to think it through before I react.

Thanks again,

Dave

Maybe I should keep out of this since I was not involved in the upset.  I have never thought sz symptoms were entertaining, but I have likened them to a 3-ring circus or a carnival of sight and sound that is constantly evolving into something terrifying.  They are "entertaining" only in the fact that they hold me spellbound -- all my attention is drawn away from what is really going on around me.  They lead me away from reality with a fiendish Pied Piper.  I get caught up in them and lose my way home.  At one time, I thought that kind of life was what I wanted -- I had forgotten what a "normal" life was like.  I had forgotten joy, peace, love, tranquility, creativity, spontaneity.  But now I am back safely on the other side and see what a tragedy it would have been for me to have remained totally enthralled by that inner world that had a life of it's own.

Carolyn

Hello Chris,

Your points are well taken.

Internet text is rather flat and there's no voice inflection or hand gesturing on anything else with which to interpret what the speaker is saying, so it can be taken the wrong way.

Regards,

Christina

I may not have explained myself very well. What is initially "entertaining" turns out to be rather cruel. That is the reason my friend eventually tried to get rid of them because of the change. It may have been a much "milder" form of sz but as a whole, it was still extremely terrifying. He thought he was either in hell or going to hell. However there is a lot of apparent or obvious contradictions. At times he thought that he was God but that couldn't be true so he thought that he was if not the greatest person in the world, one of the greatest. There were these highs and lows that he also hated. There were also things that he would not talk about.