The song "Amazing Grace" is playing in my mind. Its one of my favorite songs.
Last night in the addiction recovery group, I felt good. I feels good to belong and to fellowship with those who are going through the hell of addiction. I have learned much, and will use that knowledge to move forward.
I am having a hard time writing today. I have deleted many times. I am weary and depressed. There I said what is the result of my problem this day. I have many factors that is making me this way. I have way too much going on. I am trying to simplify my life.
I am an "over-thinker." I add more stuff to a worry or problem then it warrants. A lot of the time what I add is irrational and unjustified.
Though I try hard to "fix" my SZA into a neat little package its still there. Today I am going to call my pdoc. I don't want any ECT's, but that just might be what I need. I was concerned that stopping them would not be a good idea, and truth be told it isn't. I hate to admit defeat, but I am in need.
What you put into a mind, good or bad, comes out in a life.
David
Hi Dave,
What you feel is real to you so own your feelings, process them, and honor them as you being your new life without the ECT treatments. You know what you need to do even if that involves making an appointment.
As for the worry I can relate because I don't often have an empty mind and I fill it up as soon as it gets emptied.
My great concern now is being able to afford an independent editor to critique my query letter and book proposal. In February I begin querying literary agents again.
Wish me good luck.
As I will wish you to have peace of mind too.
Hearing Amazing Grace must have had the unintended affect of comforting you.
Remember: take time to smell the roses.
Regards,
Christina
Thank you Christina.
I wish you well. Let us know when your book is published. Didn't you write another book?
Peace my friend,
David
I'm writing a second book yes.
I hope to publish both by 2015.