I am making mountains out of stuff I should l go. My children are making some very bad choices. I have to stand by and watch them suffer. Little do they know, or anyone else for that matter,  I suffer to see them do what they do. It hurts to the core of my soul.

Michael is moving to Syracuse, 70 miles away. That means he will be separated from me his only  family. I am angered by their lack of caring. I am upset that I can't see him as often. At least he has a place to go to. I will go up the once a month.

Life is a cruel mistress.

My Risperadol Consta shot is due today. That has a part in my funk. I will get over this hurdle.

Given all that's happened lately, my resolve to push forward is stronger than ever. My mind says to "give up" I say "NO WAY WILL I EVER GIVE UP!

I did my reading and studying this morning. I didn't want to do it but I did. My addiction wanted my attention too.. I didn't indulge it. I have almost 5 weeks now. I don't want to ruin that. It feels good not to indulge..it helps my spirituality. I also can move forward onto new obstacles..like letting go of stuff that I cannot change!

I did my 10-minute workout in 9-minutes....LOL!

I made some BBQ sauce for chicken wings. OH was that good! Margaret liked em too. Today we're going grocery shopping and but some wings. Margaret bought me a deep fryer for Christmas and I love it!!

I was bad I just ate some Kolachi's. I couldn't stop the temptation.

Have a good day all! I'm hoping that I will too.

"Its amazing what you can hear with your eyes wide open."

David