I had an ugly reminder of my sza. I had a meltdown yesterday. It was very scary. It's letting me know I'm never out of the woods. The monkey is always on my back. These meltdowns come out of nowhere it seems. Thankfully I have enough insight and strength to do what's needed to control it. I had enough control to not let it escalate. I was able to see beyond and focus on seeing it through. I will see this through. It will make me stronger. I cannot allow myself to stay in pity pottyland for too long. I can overcome this. Maybe this is God's way of making me humble. I feel as though I was getting arrogant. The path of this journey has been rocky at times. There's been a few bumps along the way. I'm proud that I saw my way past this. It gives me hope that I can handle it better next time. I wasn't gonna write today. I needed to. I had to get this out. Writing it down, putting that junk on this page is such a release. At least it's not in my head anymore.
Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,
Dave
