It's 5:30am. I woke up at 3:30am. I slept in today. Sorry if this gets old but I need to keep up with my voices progress. It was easy pushing them out today. It gets easier all the time. There are some days were it's hard to push, I'm finding those days less and less. I don't know why I didn't do this years ago. Maybe I wasn't ready until now. I needed to get a handle on other things. I haven't felt this good either. (I do have setbacks and meltdowns). I'm simply amazed at what I've done to be rid of em. I haven't made an effort like this since I quit smoking. I think eventually the voices will go away all together. I'm sorry if I go on and on about this. This is a major change in my thought process. It's like I'm reborn. I can actually hear my thoughts and my OWN inner voice. I heard voices for a total of 20 minutes since I woke up today. I was able to push em out. I'm finding I need to fill the void where the voices were. I have to challenge my mind. It's like when I quit smoking, I rubbed a small rock to cure the hand part of it. Instead of fumbling with a cigarette I replaced it with the rock. My next project is reprogramming my thoughts. Get rid of the old messages I've told myself. I'm doing this a little. I'm gonna use the push. When I think of something that has a negative impact I will push it out and replace it. Not allow myself to think and dwell on it. I will work on that slowly. I don't want to take on too much. After all it took my 28 years to work on the voices!
Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,
David
