I wrote this as a comment to one of Carolyn's shareposts. I decided to expand on it in a sharepost. My family doesn't support me, now, then, or ever. I've wanted their support for many years. They don't discuss my "condition". The family is a trigger for me. They are my biggest problem. Until recently, I've begun to really accept that. I don't need their acceptance or their good graces. I'm trying to work past the past. I want and need to let go of my pride and get on with my life.
I'm not sure if I wrote this before, I had to let go of my older brother. The fear he caused has crippled me for years. I faced a raging dog, head on and came out the better.
Sz has rocked my world for many a year. It's changed me. I'm a better man because of sz. Early on in my sz career I let others define me. I looked at others so I could incorporate them into me. In actuality I lost myself. I don't recall when I started to look for the real me. In AA they say "take what you want and leave the rest." I still to this day do alot of inner soul searching. I'm weeding out the negative and replacing with good wholesome values.
I am what I am says Popeye. I'm redefining who I am. I'm rewritng the book of Dave. I am unique unto my self. I accept who and what I've become.
Peace,
Dave
