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Saturday, July 04, 2009
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July 4th,1980 to July 4th 2009. Then and now. This journal is about this special day, not only about America's birthday, but the beginning of my second chance at life. It was two weeks after I got discharged from Robert Packer Hospital. The voices were relentless. I could not g...

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I'm glad that you are doing better.
Daleri
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 07:21 AM
I have had problems in my life. I just kept looking up and believing it would lead to a better day.

re: I'm glad that you are doing better.
David Robbins
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 01:24 PM

I believe that everyday is special. I look for ways to better myself. I am a work in progress.

Dave

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Daleri
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 11:09 PM
That too. Every day is special. I can't help but wonder who you credit the "work in progress" to. Is it nature or environment or something? I believe I am a work in progress and that the One who started the work will finish it.

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David Robbins
Sunday, July 05, 2009 at 04:57 AM

I had alot of good people lay the foundation for me. I have done the hardwork it takes to succeed and flourish. It is my determination that propels me. I credit myself.

Dave

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Daleri
Sunday, July 05, 2009 at 08:46 AM

You did say that you look for ways to better yourself. I was just thinking in broader terms. I was thinking in terms of the "Spirit of truth" that makes me better and complete (because truth covers everything). People like to make fun of the "invisible man" that I believe in but that *Man* is *Truth* that is invisible but we are able to see the results of what truth does.

thanks for reminding me to remember
DCROY9633
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 08:36 AM

My worst times were about 1994-2004, at first because my whole life was in turmoil and upheaval, and then psychosis on top of that. Then I became suicidal, like you, only I followed through and overdosed on my meds 3 times. Finally my mom said, "Well, what do you expect ME to do about it?" I don't think she realized that it was a cry for serious help, not merely a cry for attention. I was never hospitalized for months like you were, but I was hospitalized many times for a week to a month at a time. Just enough to start responding the medications again.

Thanks for reminding me of how bad the bad times were, and just how far we are removed from those times now. How much you and I have improved.

I think I need to find a hobby, like cooking is for you. Something to stimulate my interest, something fun. I am an artist, but painting isn't fun like it used to be. Reading, I guess, is one my favorite things to do. And I love music.

Carolyn

re: thanks for reminding me to remember
David Robbins
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 01:29 PM

Carolyn, I hope you can find that spark that makes what you do fun. Finding a hobby doesn't have to be expensive. I find joy with most things I do. I look through the eyes of a child. I am awed easily. Maybe you could write music. You love words and music. Although cooking and baking are my first love, writing is on top of the list too. Somebody suggested I make a "Bucket List." I am going to do that.

Keep moving ahead. Glance back briefly.

I wish you the best.

Have a great holiday!

Dave

4th of July
Adam's mom
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 12:04 PM

Dave,

Im in tears.

Kathy

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David Robbins
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 01:23 PM

Dear Kathy, I wrote this sharepost as a closure. Those days of the state hospital are over for me. I have a good life now. Do not despair, there's a whole lifetime of adventure waiting to be enjoyed.. I am Happy this day.

Have a good holiday Kathy.

Thanks for being supportive.

Dave

Best Wishes
Christina Bruni
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 12:45 PM

Hi Dave,

I submit that you recovered and anyone reading your story will have living proof that people can recover because you are an inspirational to us all.

To quote Nigel Bart, the founder of ArtBeat, an artists colony, "Recovery is a choice, one you make and move forward on." You chose recovery, and that made all the difference.

I don't want to minimize your personal accomplishments by referring to how what you did makes the world better for other people. Surely your achievements speak for themselves. As a good friend told me, "You serve society by bettering yourself," yet I also submit that bettering yourself is a noble goal in and of itself.

Your SharePosts inspire me and I'm sure countless others every day.

Thank you for your insight and generosity of spirit and kind words always.

May I toast you with a glass of orange juice?

Best wishes,

Christina

re: Best Wishes
David Robbins
Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 01:13 PM

Thanks again Christina for your kind words and wisdom. I like those quotes.

I raise my glass of orange juice to you!

peace,

Dave