Is SZA entertaining? Is it a circus act? Is it a joke?
This entry is in direct response to a comment on a sharepost.
I used to belong to a speakers group until the leader referred to us a circus. The comment in the sharepost was that SZA is entertaining.
I am furious that people think of me as a joke or a side show. SZA is no laughing matter. I have been through hell with SZA. I have had to work harder than most to get where I am now.
I have heard voices almost everyday for over 29 years. I have been in a hospital at least 15 times in 29 years. I take medicine everyday. I get an ECT every three weeks. I struggle with depression and anxiety attacks. And I think of dying everyday. FUN HUH?
Please if you read this and are not diagnosed with SZ, do not think of me as a circus act. I am a functioning member of society. I own my house and two cars. All of my bills are paid on time. I don't have any credit card debt. And I have a nice "nest egg." All the while with SZA.
Dave
Hi Dave,
I hope you know that I and other people here don't consider you or any of us clowns or prancing elephants.
Some people have mild forms of SZ, some have more severe forms.
Though I'm doing well I choose to stand on the side of the line with everyone else who has a much harder time of it. I wouldn't dare presume to know what it's like unless I'd been there. I care very much about you and your recovery and everyone else on this site who is struggling with whatever level of SZ they have.
Because even if I had a mild form [and I wouldn't tell anyone that I did] that doesn't make a difference and I would never tell anyone I did. The point being: SZ is what it is, we're all in this together, and we can learn from each other effective coping skills, and give each other a pat on the back and share both laughter and tears. And not run away when the going gets tough for one of us.
Because the going does get tough at times.
I even draw the line against those Mad Pride events where people shout in the streets because they're proclaiming to the world they had a breakdown. I am not proud of the symptoms I had or have. I'm proud I made something of my life.
By the way, I have no credit card debt either. I just bought a chair and ottoman to complete the decoration of my living room.
The broken desk, that is another story. Please don't get me started on that.
Cheers,
Christina
Good morning Christina. I want to apologize for my "lashing out" yesterday. I lost control. I was out of line. I am grateful for the people here. I have found much comfort and genuine caring. I don't care for those "Mad Pride" events either. I want to educate rather than going out and proclaiming in the streets. "The pen is mighter than the sword." I must learn to take the bad with the good.
I am also doing very good.
Forgive my outburst.
Dave