For the last hour I've heard the lyrics "moon shadow, moon shadow" repeat in my head. It doesn't bother me too much., but I wish the broken record will stop. There has been some "dark" voices lurking around. Thankfully the lyric is louder.
I'm scared right now. I'm not sure of what. Maybe its the new neighbors. I have had thoughts that someone is gonna shoot me, so I keep the shade down. (this has nothing to do with the new neighbors, I have felt that way for a few months) Its an unfounded fear. I am afraid of the dark. Have been since early childhood.
My Risperadol shot is due on Wednesday. That will help me get back on my feet.
In the obituraries yesterday there was an " in memory" of a friend who passed away 7 years ago. We were roommates. I left a message on his guest book for his family. One time I was at a store looking at a Santa suit I wanted to buy. I was talking out loud about how I couldn't afford it. Suddenly my friend tapped my shoulder and said "here is the money you need, Merry Christmas." I cry when I think of that day. On his funeral I cried. I'm crying now. For the longest time I tried to pay him back, but he would never let me. I can still hear his laugh and his voice. He had a special way he said my name.
"Moon shadow, moon shadow."
Sometimes someone enters a life and makes a difference. A person whose soul shines bright. This person doesn't want material possessions. They genuinely care about their fellow humans. Giving of themselves freely. People cross each others' path for a reason.
Search your heart
search your soul
you will see how the love will flow.
Have peace in your hearts my friends. If you haven't any do not despair, there is plenty to go 'round. "Seek and ye shall find."
Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,
Dave
Dave, I think even "normal" people will sometimes have the problem of having the same music playing over and over in their heads. It is often a song that you don't really like but it is hard to get it out of your mind. There is also the saying of "garbage in, garbage out". Whatever you put into your mind for whatever reason is what will come out of it. For this reason, some people will isolate themselves and only read the Bible or something like that. It doesn't solve all problems in the world but it does get rid of some of the garbage. Otherwise thoughts and things will surface when you least want them.