The voice reality

Voices are active today. Not really too bothersome. Music on voices gone.

I see my pdoc this afternoon for my 5 minute shot appointment. I'm gonna tell him about my fear of someone shooting me through the side window. I will also mention the "dark" voices. I hope he's understanding.

I've written alot about the voices over the course of two years. I never talked about them that much before because when I did nobody seemed to care. I've had about 6 pdocs in 29 years and not one ever asked anything about what the voices said or who they are. Therefore I never discussed them because the professionals didn't care. I told my current pdoc, whom I've seen for 20 years, that the voices were going away. His retort was "the meds must be working." I let him have that one, but in reality no med has ever stopped them. Meds do help don't get me wrong. They treat my other symptoms.  It wasn't until I decided I was gonna do something, that they became less frequent.

Since I started to write about them, I have learned so much. I also have met some very strong people who battle with voices, like I do. My strategy to stop them is working.

I write alot about this. Sometimes its the same way. I think that if I keep hammering away it will sink in my head further.

I promise I will come up with some new stuff to write. I've been thinking of that for a few days. The shot will help.

I am constantly doing the same thing expecting different results. But Thomas Edison tried 2,000 times to make a lightbulb.

Thank you for letting write here. This is a good outlet for the brain build up.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

David