This morning just before I became fully awake, I was dreaming of how to make White Castle burgers..LOL!  I wanted to make em better. Strange how dreams are. I could interrupt that as I am trying to reshape my life.

Paula Deen from the Food Network is laughing and carrying on in my mind.

Mind is empty except for Paula's voice.

Even though I've heard voices for all these years, there is still some clarity of mind. Its like being at the state fair trying to find the funnel cake vendor. I'm swimming through this huge crowd, hell bent on finding me some fried dough. There's people talking and walking around and music playing, but all my attention is focused on the search. I won't rest till I have found it.

Finding peace of mind has been a struggle. Some days are better than others. The beginning of a day is such pleasure. I have been given another chance at life. How will I use that chance? I will use it the best way possible.

Voices are calling me. I hear their cry and don't know why.

I used to call the State Hospital the "Hotel California." "You can check out but you can never leave." The lyric "voices are calling from far away, they wake you up in the middle of the night."  Those lines and that whole song have great meaning. Over the years I've been in a hospital too many times to count. Can I never leave? I'm gonna try. As for my constant barrage of voices they too will be defeated. I can and will best them.

I have other things to do right now, so I will take me leave.

Take good care until we meet again.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

Dave