Let the music play

The lyric "you can do magic, your the one can put out the fire" has been skipping in my mind all morning. I've been up about an hour and a half.

My family is on fire. Not just my siblings but my parents,aunts and uncles and cousins.  Is it up to me to put out that fire? If it is I don't have the strength or the desire.

Its been a few frustrating days. I go see my pdoc for my Risperadol Consta shot. I'm racking my mind to have something to tell him. I got nothing. Besides the visit will only be 5 minutes. The shot will help. I feel like a derailed train. I go off path every now and again.

I'm waiting in the hall for the next door to open. I have been focusing on trying to close a door. I wait. Thankfully I'm a patient man.

Here they are! The voices have come to torture me. So they think.

 I sound cynical. I am. I have too much on my plate. I am a classic multitasker (old work habit). I am calm and I'm thinking clearly. Maybe its anger. Misplaced anger.

Yesterday I had a bout of anxiety. That worries me. If I had a choice I'd take depression over anxiety. I know how to handle depression.

Thanks for letting me vent and whine a bit. I needed to unload that crap.

Take care until we meet again.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

Dave