I don't talk much about how I feel. I usually feel good. For many years I didn't feel anything except happiness and anger. Now I feel a huge range of emotions.

I'm writing my memories in a private journal. Some of those are hurtful and bring out strong feelings. It's good to actually "see" them. I am amazed how far and how hard it was to get to this very point. I see the changes and what it felt like.  Don't worry I won't walk into any parking meters.

My mind is better than it has been, despite the voices (on hiatus at the moment).

I say I choose to feel good. I believe that the first thought of the day determines how my day will go.Today I woke with good thoughts. It will be a good day. I have chosen this day to be good. 

Chinese proverb
"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will avoid one hundred days of sorrow."

In my anger days, I couldn't see past it. My eyes were clouded. I would hold a grudge till it hurt. I asked myself why? What good is carrying around that anger? What purpose does it serve?

The last time I got super angry was last year, when I faced my brother.( I know I wasn't patient.) I yelled and cursed at him for at least 10 minutes. Afterwards I didn't have that "nervous pent-up" feeling I was totally at ease. Its like a garbage truck when it dumps its load of crap, it is free of it and the weight is gone.

I sit here every morning and think. I think "how can I help today? What will my day bring? What can I add to make it a better day?"

I feel blessed today.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

Dave