I woke this morning at 2:50 am to Cher singing "Gypsies, tramps and thieves." Now I hear "Dr. Feelgood" by a band I can't remember who. The funny thing is that I haven't actually heard either song in years. I am always amazed at the song selections I hear.
I feel rather well today. It's early yet, that's ok, this is a good time to create.
My brother's therapist called me last night. She wanted to get some information about him. My poor brother. Life has dealt him a crappy hand. My family angers me everytime I think of Mike yearning for the family. I will support him as much as I can. I love my brother and want the best for him. He called just after I talked to his therapist. I told him I loved him before I hung up. I know I've written many times about Mike and the rest of them. Its just that my heart breaks for him. I do not know why they are so angry and hateful.
It has been said that having SZA is a terrible thing. I so agree. BUT! My having this awful disease has brought out my feelings. I work on my issues on a daily basis. I am more in touch with who I am and how I feel. Where's the tragedy in that? The last time I was in a ward was two years ago in September. I told my dad after I got out and his reply "was it the same ole thing?" Anyway I don't need their acknowledgements. I'm satisfied with my life. True I am a work in progress, at least I'm working.
My family can't say those three words. "I love you." I can and I do. Those words are the most beautiful words one can say. I told my dad I loved him. I told another brother I loved him. Even though they can't say it, they know that I do in fact love them. I don't expect them to say it back.
I'm multi tasking. I'm working a Suduko puzzle and writing this post. I got all the way down to 4 boxes and I made a mistake. I erased the whole puzzle.
My weight is now 235 down from 250. I'm more active than I ever was. I'm starting to clean off the front porch. I want to get it ready for Halloween. Besides it needs to be cleaned.
Anyone wanna hear what I baked yesterday? What's a sharepost without food? I made spritz cookies. I used a cookie shooter thingy. After a few failed attempts to figure the shooter out, I finally got the hang of it. I also made some Magic Bars. OMG! The Magic bars were the best yet. The spritz cookies are too hard for me. Margaret likes em.
Here they are. I was wondering when the voices were gonna appear. Fight em off I will. I did. I turned my focus off them and onto writing this sharepost and Suduko. Keeping busy is always a good thing. Not just physically, but mentally and spirtually.
I am satisfied with this sharepost. I will stop here and move on with my day.
Peace to all.
Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,
Dave
Hi Dave,
If memory serves it was Motley Crue who did Dr. FeelGood in the 1980s or early 1990s.
Yes, I googled it and they are the band that did that song.
It must seem like your brain is a jukebox randomly selecting tunes that you would rather not listen to. Distracting yourself is a good way to maintain control.
I will send you the key lime pie recipe tomorrow. I have found it in my recipes folder.
Regards,
Christina
Christina,
I sometimes think that there's a radio station in my head. I love music.
When the lyrics keep repeating its easy to get back to a thought I may have missed. Its a circle. I'll think of something (when writing) and start typing. I think too fast and may lose the train of thought. I will wait for the lyric to start over and then the thought will come back. Does that make any sense?
I sometimes do mind exercise to help me "put ducks in a row." I will think a string of 4 or 5 thoughts, then I will think backward until all the thoughts come back. I did that in school to help with the boredom.
Have a nice day.
Dave