And the band plays on

I woke this morning at 2:50 am to Cher singing "Gypsies, tramps and thieves." Now I hear "Dr. Feelgood" by a band I can't remember who. The funny thing is that I haven't actually heard either song in years. I am always amazed at the song selections I hear.

I feel rather well today. It's early yet, that's ok, this is a good time to create.

My brother's therapist called me last night. She wanted to get some information about him. My poor brother. Life has dealt him a crappy hand. My family angers me everytime I think of Mike yearning for the family.  I will support him as much as I can. I love my brother and want the best for him. He called just after I talked to his therapist. I told him I loved him before I hung up. I know I've written many times about Mike and the rest of them. Its just that my heart breaks for him. I do not know why they are so angry and hateful.

It has been said that having SZA is a terrible thing. I so agree. BUT! My having this awful disease has brought out my feelings. I work on my issues on a daily basis. I am more in touch with who I am and how I feel. Where's the tragedy in that? The last time I was in a ward was two years ago in September. I told my dad after I got out and his reply "was it the same ole thing?" Anyway I don't need their acknowledgements. I'm satisfied with my life. True I am a work in progress, at least I'm working.

 My family can't say those three words. "I love you." I can and I do. Those words are the most beautiful words one can say. I told my dad I loved him. I told another brother I loved him. Even though they can't say it, they know that I do in fact love them. I don't expect them to say it back.

I'm multi tasking. I'm working a Suduko puzzle and writing this post. I got all the way down to 4 boxes and I made a mistake. I erased the whole puzzle.

My weight is now 235 down from 250. I'm more active than I ever was. I'm starting to clean off the front porch. I want to get it ready for Halloween. Besides it needs to be cleaned.

Anyone wanna hear what I baked yesterday? What's a sharepost without food? I made spritz cookies. I used a cookie shooter thingy. After a few failed attempts to figure the shooter out, I finally got the hang of it. I also made some Magic Bars. OMG! The Magic bars were the best yet. The spritz cookies are too hard for me. Margaret likes em.

Here they are. I was wondering when the voices were gonna appear. Fight em off I will. I did. I turned my focus off them and onto writing this sharepost and Suduko. Keeping busy is always a good thing. Not just physically, but mentally and spirtually.

I am satisfied with this sharepost. I will stop here and move on with my day.

Peace to all.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

Dave