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Mon, September 28, 2009

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We are home from our vacation. It was nice to see my folks.

I was surprised to see that mom looked worse than dad. She is sad and tired.

I am worried for them both. Dad's drinking and violent rantings are still common. Mom said he's forgeting alot and when I talked to her she didn't always hear me.

I'm writing a tribute to mom. I will also write one for dad.

When we left I told dad that I loved him. I had struggled with whether or not or how I was gonna tell him. I had every intention of telling him. So I hugged him and told him. Much to my surprise he said "I love you too." Those three words I will always remember. I waited a lifetime to hear them.

I teared up and left with a heavy heart. I may never see them again. I will call every week.

When my grandfather died and my former supervisor passed on, (both men were instrumental in shaping my life), I didn't really get a chance to tell them how I felt. I challenge all of you to tell those you love how much they mean to you. You may never have the chance. Don't let time "slip by." Don't let your love die and not be known.

I was impressed to hear, I mean not hear, any voices the whole trip. No morning music and no voices for 5 days. COOL!

Anyway its nice to be home.

Take good care,

Keep your feet on the ground, the sun on your face and the wind at your back.

Live, love, laugh, learn, listen,

David son of Thelma and James

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Chris

9/28/09 6:19am

Good morning Dave.

Glad you are home safely.

That is a wonderful and moving post...Thank you for sharing your tribute, and also for laying down that challenge you suggest we each find time to fulfil with 'our' own special people...family ,friends,'voicing' our love, valuing and or appreciation of them....

Fascinated to hear you left your voices behind you on your vacation...no doubt they weren't invited!! The 'scientist' in me is pondering hard over this mystery, which I think you said happened previously on your travels?! If only we could understand more of the complexities of the brain at work.....

Now if only you could suggest 'they' take a break while you stay at home, I am sure you'd offer to buy the tickets! One way :) of course!

Best wishes Chris, UK

daughter of Jack and Betty

David Robbins

9/28/09 6:30am

Thank you Chris for your wonderful wit and wisdom. You have been a good friend and great source of inspiration. I value your opinions and your good nature.

If I knew why the voices went on vacation, I would be well. I've sat here at this desk for 4 1/2 hours contemplating just that. Why did they go away and why am I hearing them now? One day I will have the answer. I assure you I won't keep it a secret. I will spread it to anyone who wants the voices to "vacation" all of the time. That is my dream, my goal, my mission and my calling.

Thank you so much.

Peace my friend,

Dave

Rene Victor

9/28/09 10:11am

Welcome back Dave, happy to hear that you were able to spend time with your folks and tell them how you felt. I hope that you see them again.

I have a hard time telling my mom and dad that I love them. I mean, I tell them when they tell me first but I never initiate. I'm just fortunate that they provide me with a roof over my head, support and some outstanding meals. They too are getting up there but my dad and mom are really strong.

I'm happy to hear that you didn't have to fight off voices. Anytime I hear progress, it gives me hope.

Have a great day!

David Robbins

9/28/09 4:27pm

Thank you.

Dave

Christina Bruni

9/28/09 11:39pm

Hi Dave,

Sorry I've been exhausted all weekend and am now getting back to responding. I have quit my talk therapy because I felt we covered no new ground and I had gotten from it all I needed to get. So I will have another night free to attend to the Connection work.

I am so glad you told your father "I love you" and that he also said that. My mother, who did the right thing when she needed to [drove me to the hospital], is not in the best of health either and I won't go into it. So I understand that "these are the years" to devote to family. My father turns 75 in November and Mom turns 72 in April. They look younger than they are.

So I know how you feel about having this time with family. You are a devoted husband, father and grandpa so be proud of that and be proud of your family. You never know, the others in your family could secretly look up to you and won't tell you they do, however it could be true.

Regards,

Christina

David Robbins

9/29/09 4:55am

Thank you Christina.

I learned the opposite of my folks do. They are my anit-role models. I don't do what they do.(that sounds like Dr.Suess)

I tell my kids everytime I speak to them that I love them. My grandkids too.

Thank you again.

Thank you to whoever created this site. Its is my favorite place to write.

Dave

Dorothy

9/29/09 11:04pm

Welcome back Dave.

I was touched by your entry especially because I come from a different country and our culture is very conservative so we almost never say "I love you."

I miss my family everyday and they mean so much to me.

Anyway, welcome back and have a good rest of the week!

David Robbins

9/30/09 4:05am

Thank you Dorothy.

I wish you a good week.

Take care,

Dave