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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
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"The hardest part of doing nothing is knowing when to stop." Yesterday I had a huge anxiety attack. My head was racing my body shaking (sounds like a song). I sat around doing nothing to stop it. I tried to tell Margaret. She was begging me to talk to her. I tried, real hard. I coul...

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abcd
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 at 04:20 PM

Hello there,

Please excuse my saying so, but you should apologise to your parents. Hurtful words are like a real wound. The pain you can inflict by an unkind, thoughtless word is truly fearsome, yet a sincere apology can help..

Do you mind describing your anxiety attack? I have a nephew (20 years old) that stayed overnight some time ago. He woke up in the middle of the night saying to call an ambulance because he can't breath, had stiffness, chest pressure etc. In short, the classic symptoms of a heart attack! Later it was determined he had suffered from an anxiety attack. Are these the usual symptoms?

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David Robbins
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 at 04:45 PM

Dear abcd,

You are right that I should apologize, which I plan on doing. I wasn't trying to hurt them.

There's a book called "The Four Agreements." In one chapter it says "to be impeccable with your words." I certainly did not do that. I have deep regrets and will make amends.

My anxiety attacks have a feeling of wanting to "jump out of my skin." I feel my heart beat as if it were a drumbeat. My thoughts are angry, hurtful ones. I will never hurt anyone. I tend to "shut down" as to not do or say things I may regret later.

Thank you for pointing out my awful mistake. I will call my folks and apologize to them.

peace,

Dave

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Naykizzo
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 at 06:01 PM

Dave, man I'm really sorry to hear that you had an overwhelming anxiety attack. I can certainly relate to that because I believe I'm hit at least 3 times a week. I too, don't really do anything about it. I've tried many things in the past but nothing seems to work. My problem is during an attack I don't want to talk to others because I don't get the responses I want to hear. I have Vistaril as my last resort though.

In regard to your mom and dad, that's a tough one. I live with mine so I'm blessed to see them daily. Sometimes I wish I was out on my own but if it were not for them, I wouldn't be where I am today.

Hang in there....

Rene