Been away thinking

I have alot of confusion and chaos in my mind these days. I came up with a theory of why I hear voices. While sitting here the other day I realized that I cannot formulate a chain of thoughts without typing or writing them down OR without voice interaction. I've said to those who ask what the voices say, I tell them that they read my mind. The truth is I skated by on life, knowing that the voices would read what I cannot put into words. Even now I'm having a time with the thought process. I let the voices chatter on and not do a doggone thing about it. Letting the voices go about their business was way easier than thinking for myself. I sat through life as it rolled on by me without a care. I became so ingarined in not taking care that I just "floated" along. The next thing I'm gonna do is excercise my mind. I will train myself to form sentences in my mind with my own true voice. I'm gonna try to write what happens when I start to lose my train of thoughts. Lately I haven't been hearing many voices. The ones I do hear are abusive. Thankfully I know how to shut them out. I know the difference between a "voice" and my voice. All I need is the power to think for myself. Dave