Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from David Robbins at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/95407/there-always Wed, 18 Nov 2009 16:46:55 -0500 David Robbins Always   There will always be a sunrise There will always be a nightfall There will always be a wind There will always be love There will always be an outstretched hand There will always be a friend in need There will always be the respect and care of others There will always be one of me There will always be all of you There will be a new thing to see There will always be all that you can be  (Sorry about the Army... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/95407/there-always http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/95331/catching Wed, 18 Nov 2009 04:48:51 -0500 David Robbins In two days we will be going to Oklahoma. Margaret's daughter lives there. Her other daughter and grandkids from Texas will also there. It will be a nice holiday. It also will be nice to get away for a bit.   The voices are few. I don't really listen to them. Old hat I know.    Our desk top computer finally bit the dust (I'm using the laptop). We had to buy a new one. It will be ready in 7-10 days.   My son... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/95331/catching http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/94554/good-gooder Thu, 12 Nov 2009 05:25:06 -0500 David Robbins It's a good day! It's almost 5am, its dark and the only sounds I hear are the refridgerator, the fish tank, and the music lyric I woke up with playing over and over in my mind.   At 7am I go for my ECT. Its been over a month since my last one. I felt good going the extra time between ECT's.   I kept myself busy. I did have a few days this last week where I felt "edgy". Today will take the edge off. Thank God!   I had a... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/94554/good-gooder http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/94457/whack Wed, 11 Nov 2009 14:09:00 -0500 David Robbins Wow, I am so out of my routine. I have been writing less and less it seems. I keep justifying it by saying "I have been busy with others interests." I have been busy and  totally lose track of time.   These last two days I've been irritable. Not at any one particular thing. My shot is a week overdue and my ECT is a week and a half overdue because my pdoc was on vacation. I am going for my shot today and ECT tomorrow. That... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/94457/whack http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/93898/lamentings Sat, 07 Nov 2009 16:23:39 -0500 David Robbins Lately I've been wanting to use my illness as an excuse for the way I act. I shy away from conversations and really want to blame it on my SZA. I know deep down that it isn't my SZA. I have been shy my whole life. So why do I have this desire to blame it on the SZA? I don't know the answer or maybe I'm unwilling to accept the truth. Anyway I ain't gonna blame it on anything. I will face the fear and overcome it.   I... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/93898/lamentings http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/93334/days Tue, 03 Nov 2009 15:07:40 -0500 David Robbins It was three days since I last posted. I am doing okay. Halloween went well with lots of tricks and treaters.   My voices are quiet. I have a few but they are so fast and soft spoken that I am unable to remember what they say. Also I have been busy, both mentally and physically. Myself and two neighbors have been raking and bagging leaves. Wow! What a chore, it was nice to have the three of us out there helping each other. People... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/93334/days http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92903/halloween Sat, 31 Oct 2009 06:41:48 -0400 David Robbins Happy Halloween to you ghosts and goblins!   Yesterday my grandson's school had a Halloween Parade. Margaret, Mandy, her roommate and I went to watch. There were superheroes like Spiderman and Superman. Lots of Power Rangers, devils and all kinds of really cool costumes. There was one small boy with his parents that was a box of popcorn. He was so cute. His parents let us take a picture of him. Alot of parents showed to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92903/halloween http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92783/lighter-side Fri, 30 Oct 2009 05:11:46 -0400 David Robbins Yesterday I was thinking of asking Don how he gets his speaking engagements. I have done some in the past and really want to do some more. I enjoy speaking (although I get performance anxiety).   I received a call from a woman at the state hospital. She wants me to come up and talk to some of the patients. I was surprised because the last time I was there was in February. I thought they had forgotten about me. I like going... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92783/lighter-side http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92290/thinking Mon, 26 Oct 2009 16:38:04 -0400 David Robbins I have alot of confusion and chaos in my mind these days. I came up with a theory of why I hear voices. While sitting here the other day I realized that I cannot formulate a chain of thoughts without typing or writing them down OR without voice interaction. I've said to those who ask what the voices say, I tell them that they read my mind. The truth is I skated by on life, knowing that the voices would read what I cannot put into words. Even... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/92290/thinking http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/91747/food-attack Thu, 22 Oct 2009 06:33:50 -0400 David Robbins Be careful this journal may make you hungry.   Yesterday my beloved and I celebrated her birthday. The gold bracelet I bought looks good on her. (I couldn't figure out how to put it on her since it has 3 chains. Thankfully Margaret figured it out and I clasped it on her wrist.)    We did some shopping in Syracuse (which is about 65 miles north of here.) When we got home I threw some steaks on the grill.... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/91747/food-attack