Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from David Robbins at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39912/friends Sun, 07 Sep 2008 10:34:46 -0000 David Robbins   I want you all to know that I was hospitalized on Monday, September the 1st. I was having severe anxiety. Since I've never had anything like that happen before I was extremely scared and worried. I put off going to the ER for three days prior to my admission. I suggest to anyone if you're feeling not right, seek help. I was admitted involunarily. I'm stranger to being an inpatient. I've been hospitalized many times over the course... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39912/friends http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39807/paradise Sat, 06 Sep 2008 10:15:14 -0000 David Robbins The following story I wrote while being in the hospital. This is my definiton of paradise.     This is paradise. It was a clear dark night.The cresent moon was waxing. The stars shone brightly. A cool breeze wafted through the trees. Jerry was walking to find that place of peace. A night owl hooted. Jerry took in the silence. A brook nearby was purring softly .Somewhere a coyote was howling. The forest smells filled his soul. He... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39807/paradise http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39806/annivesary Sat, 06 Sep 2008 09:37:20 -0000 David Robbins Chris noted that the 4th of Sept was my annivesary for journaling here on the Connection. Thanks Chris! I had wanted to write a journal on the 4th but was unable to. I was in the hospital. I went in because I was having major anxiety. My pdoc thought my anxiety was a side effect. I started to take Cogentin. It worked wonders for me.    As I look at what this past year has brought me I smile. I journaled alot. The warmth and... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39806/annivesary http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39125/poor-wife-lol Sun, 31 Aug 2008 21:42:30 -0000 David Robbins I'm grateful for my wife. She has so much patience when it comes to me. Not just with my sza, which is alot. Last summer we were swimming in our pool. Her daughter was there, and being the man I am decided to show off for the ladies. During my show I lost my balance and fell out of the pool, onto my head. I laughed so hard. The next day I hurt. The other day we were going to the movies. We had been to this theater 100 times at least. I got to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/39125/poor-wife-lol http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38995/hooked Sat, 30 Aug 2008 12:42:07 -0000 David Robbins It's been two days since I posted last. I needed a break. I feel compelled to write as often as I can. I do have to break from it sometimes.   I'm doing fairly well. The patience I prayed for has been tested all week. The voices have been going away so much. One day I heard em of an hour the next day 10 minutes. A far cry from all day. I'd tell my pdoc, but I won't. That's a whole nother story. Anyway. The warm weather is leaving.... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38995/hooked http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38802/m-getting-it Thu, 28 Aug 2008 18:44:03 -0000 David Robbins Be careful want you ask for you, just might get it. I've been asking for more patience. I mean I have alot, but felt I needed more. Well asking is easy. In order to get it I have to be tested. Lord knows I've had alot of tests these last few days. Things are popping up all over. Mostly from my #1 problem..the family. I've handled these situations well. My patience is growing. Or is it tolerance? I dunno. These problems are... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38802/m-getting-it http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38626/push-thoughts Wed, 27 Aug 2008 09:55:11 -0000 David Robbins It's 5:30am. I woke up at 3:30am. I slept in today. Sorry if this gets old but I need to keep up with my voices progress. It was easy pushing them out today. It gets easier all the time. There are some days were it's hard to push, I'm finding those days less and less. I don't know why I didn't do this years ago. Maybe I wasn't ready until now. I needed to get a handle on other things. I haven't felt this good either. (I do have setbacks and... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38626/push-thoughts http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38506/meltdown Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:15:59 -0000 David Robbins I had an ugly reminder of my sza. I had a meltdown yesterday. It was very scary. It's letting me know I'm never out of the woods. The monkey is always on my back. These meltdowns come out of nowhere it seems. Thankfully I have enough insight and strength to do what's needed to control it. I had enough control to not let it escalate. I was able to see beyond and focus on seeing it through. I will see this through. It will make... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38506/meltdown http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38271/morning Sun, 24 Aug 2008 09:18:39 -0000 David Robbins   Many of you know already about my struggle with the voices. You also know I've heard them for many years. I've been on numerous meds and dozens of ECT's. This morning I still hear them. Since I've started a regime to push em out it's gotten easier to rid of em. I keep writing about this because the voices have been such a big part of me. Writing a journal has helped a great deal. The voices are gone now. See when I focus or redirect my... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38271/morning http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38183/soap-box Sat, 23 Aug 2008 10:09:40 -0000 David Robbins   Yesterday while chatting with some friends I got up on my soap box (as I often do) and one of my friends says it's not a war I'm fighting. This post is about my personal war with sza. Is this illness like a war? Am I in the fight for my life? Is educating people about sz gonna help? Personally I say yes to all three questions. I battle my illness everyday. I am fighting for my life. I'm not only fighing for mine, but those who can't... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/5741/38183/soap-box