when to get help

im not sure about most of this. mental illness is on both sides of my family. my uncle on my fathers side is  paranoid schizophrenic. my mother has SAD and panic attacks and a nervous breakdown. as a teen i tired to kill myself. im now almost 30 and a female. i tend to "daydream" alot. i have very low self esteem.  have never had many friends. before i started taking birth control, my pms was worse. that when i thoughts of hurting myself. but the yaz has stopped it for the most part. and when i do get them its easy to stop.

at times i sleep alot and at times i cant. but i dont know how much working nites affects that. and most of the time sex= work..not fun. i just dont want to start going to a dr and not need to. thank you