who i am, who i was

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can relate so much to how your life was and how it is today. I remember how I too used to think people were watching me and I also heard voices. I also remember how I thought I was influencing what people did on t.v.

I feel so much better these days and I believe it is a result of the love of my family, my doctor and the medications that are avaiable to us today.

Hello Stiggy,

We have all been there. That's what this community is for: open to everyone without judgment.

You are within your right to keep certain things private when it comes to what you did and said during an episode. I, too, have things I haven't told anyone, and never will.

The main point is, you recognize you have an illness. Once you understand that, you can recover.

All the best,

Chris

Stiggy:

I thought I had mission from God and that if I didn't complete my mission the universe would be destroyed.

I also believed that I was being assaulted by three demons and Satan who were trying to prevent from me from completing my mission.

I thought Satan, members of our church and just about everyone else were putting thoughts into my mind which would then became my own thoughts.

I finally figured out that my mind was lying to me, that the chemistry of my brain was

screwed up.

Medications were what me back on track.  Once I started actually taking the meds my doctor prescribed, I got everything worked out.  I now feel much bettter.

Incidently, I've talked to John Nash, who will not take medications.  He wanted me to convince his son to take his meds like I had done.

If you haven't already done so, you need to find a psychiatrist and start looking for that mix of medications that will help you.

Please keep writing and let us know how you are progressing.

Robin