So what I am living with an illness I still  believe that I can go forward with my life and make the best that I ca with the help of the True great grand architect of the universe, God Almighty. I have been given extra help for my life and that is how I will look at my illness. I am blessed and I will be blessed more. When my extras talk I will hear them but I must be very careful on how I act. I am now going through a med upjust and it is wow. I have been hired for a new job and my body has been on a lot of old and new meds and I hope I will upjust alright. I need the new job to not go backward and to help push me so I can go back to school. I am happy that I have 2 mental health pros in my family and they do talk with me. The doctor in my family does not talk because I am in Indiana and she in Georgia and she is concerned about ethics and I understand. My doctors have a hard time with me and I with one of them. I am glad that I went into the Marine Corps but sad because I now have this illness and I am still waking from such a long waking sleep. No one can tell me that a person cannot be sleep and awake at the same time. I am living proof. I am  and will be living proof that a person with an illness of the schizophrenia family can recover and live a great life, with love, support, faith hope and heart. Just like I talk to my voices, iwill continue to talk to my doctors. If I am not satisfied or feel it is working, I will ask for another doctor. I suffer with a disease that is not well understood and less researched and it affects the main part of the whole body, our brain, the central processing unit of our body. I know i did not get this way overnight and I know it wil not be overnight for me to get better, but I do hope that i will get better. I again thank you Dr. Fred Frese for the inspiration and just like the Marine I am and you are,lead and I will follow. Thank you to all my doctors past and present and I hope to also joined your ranks and earn the title Doctor. may God bless us all more and more.