Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from ysraal at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/40088/acceptance Mon, 08 Sep 2008 19:25:15 -0000 ysraal This illness I live with is not anything that anyone anywhere can relate to. We have to had had some experience to relate. I have had a wild but wonderful week and all the time I am think that only God  gave me this because i can handle it and use it to help someone else. I like others traveled a long road to get where I am at today and I stil feel forward, forward. Itried to drink it away, drug it away and still today even med it away to... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/40088/acceptance http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/39196/forward-hard Mon, 01 Sep 2008 14:01:39 -0000 ysraal I am hoping that i am on my forward path and that this too is not a hallucination or delusion. it is my life i mean. Man it is  so hard but yet it just seems so unreal. Why is it that my hallucinations and delusions eem so real but my life seems so much like hallucinations and delusions. The unreal is real but the real seems unreal. All the time that I self-medicated with drugs and alcohol did not help, it only covered up the it. I feel... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/39196/forward-hard http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/35865/forward-path Sat, 02 Aug 2008 03:50:33 -0000 ysraal Now that I finally have the formal definitive diagnosis of schizoaffective/mood/thought disorder, I feel like I can just push myself and try hard, very hard and work to either turn it around or at least better my place in society. I have been working at a pizza hut for over a year as the prep person for the grand wages of 6 dollars per hour and the whole year without a raise. Just wlking and listening to my voices have led me to another job, a... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/35865/forward-path http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/35411/forward Tue, 29 Jul 2008 13:42:18 -0000 ysraal So what I am living with an illness I still  believe that I can go forward with my life and make the best that I ca with the help of the True great grand architect of the universe, God Almighty. I have been given extra help for my life and that is how I will look at my illness. I am blessed and I will be blessed more. When my extras talk I will hear them but I must be very careful on how I act. I am now going through a med upjust and it is... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/35411/forward http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/34196/backwards Thu, 17 Jul 2008 18:12:24 -0000 ysraal I am one of Gods gifts to the Earth and even though I am not regular john q. public and I have to live with a illness, I refuse to go backwards and/or accept even the thought from those who supposed to help me get better. I am a veteran with a honorable discharge from the United States Marine Corps and I recieve most of my treatment at a VA medical center and I do work 4 hours a day at a pizza hut as the prep person. I have asked to be placed in... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/34196/backwards http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/33796/faith-heart Mon, 14 Jul 2008 11:28:41 -0000 ysraal I know not what I am doing but I am doing. My words are not all that good and great but I have the faith of a mustarsd seed, the hope of my parents and the heart of all of us consumers. Many tell me to just try to write and that is what I am to do. I feel like I have been sleep foe a very long time because of this illness. But I also feel that i put myself to sleep with drugs and alcohol to try to help the pain. But the pain went nowhere. I did... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/65879/33796/faith-heart