This long mysterious surreal journey called my life.

Hello Ysraal,

You have come to the right place to talk about this.

We are a welcoming community.

Everyone here has a diagnosis or lives with someone who has a diagnosis, and while we may not have the same story as you, we can relate to what it's like to have schizoaffective or schizophrenia.

A lot of us have also gone untreated for a time.

Take heart and hope because your life doesn't have to be a repeat of the past.

The tide can turn at any moment, as I'm fond of saying.

Have a good day.

Peace,

Chri

Hello Ysraal.

Have meant to post to you before, and read your most recent Sharepost this morning.Your posts speak so well and movingly of your determination to direct your life's narrative towards some better times, and inspiring goals now you have a diagnosis, allowing access to treatment tailored to you, not that cruel misapplied label, which left you in untreated limbo before.Good luck!

 You sound as though you also have some good professional support. I do hope so.

One thing that particularly resonated with me was your very long story of life trauma back to early childhood.

Particularly your  absolutely shocking car accident at 4; (you don't say if  family things before were 'OK' and I certainly don't wish to pry.) but that itself must have been catastrophic.

 You may already know  what I write next,  but I think it is important.

At the age you were when you had your accident  the young brain, newly trying to make sense of the world for itself, believes in self important 'magical thinking' and power and the child can feel  (of course quite wrongly) as though he somehow  may  have caused/ brought on the terrible event and were to blame.)

For example if he happened to be cross ,in temper, at the time. Cause and effect... false logic though!

The pain and family separation of the following hospitalisation, and head trauma, can be mistakenly seen as a punishment meeted out to the petrified child.

Sorry to go on so, but our son was adopted by us aged 4, and his early life was one of extreme neglect. I think he struggled with hidden difficulties though childhood.Now an adult, late twenties, signs are more clear of p sz. With hindsight many features were present much earlier.We love and admire him tremendously.

Sorry to 'butt in' on your post,

please do keep posting

Chris

UK