I'm a 21 year old male who has recently been experiencing possible psychotic symptoms. From the time I was 18 I have experienced depression and anxiety, but over the course of the last year things have become progressively worse. First I became withdrawn, and suffered severe anxiety when around people. I could not hold a job, I felt like people were judging me constantly. It was almost as if they had x ray glasses that allowed them to see my very thoughts. Often times when I would hear muffled voices through a wall, I could swear I heard people talking angrily about me. Upon confronting these people, they laughed and passed off my concern as "dramatic". I get that a lot.

Dramatic describes my responses to stimuli as of late. I jumped backwards when a phone rang in front of me at my new job the other day. I cannot concentrate worth a damn, and lose most conversations within seconds. Social situations are particularly distressing, and I usually feel like an alien observer . I used to be confident, happy, social. Now I derive no pleasure from social situations, and spend most of the time inside my head trying to pin down what i'm thinking/ feeling.

The reason I come here today of all days is because recently, I have been experiencing what might might be early delusions. I was in the woods with a friend and I had us take a completely different route because I suspected that a remote control racecar that had been left on a park bench was in fact a loaded crossbow being manned by someone out in the woods. She laughed, and probably passed it off as quirkiness, but I was completely serious when i happened. I might not have realized that it was such illogical thinking had it not been for her reaction.

The last worrisome thing is my speech. I was quite well spoken, and still can been in text, but my worlds stumble over one another and become completely different words. And the things I say, i don't even know if i mean to say them. I get a lot of strange reactions from people. All the time. I feel like mere quirkiness cannot account for some of the things that are happening to me. My parents have said i've been a different person ever since the age of 18, but not until recently have i felt so out of touch with reality.

I don't know if its worth mentioning, but my eyes play a lot of tricks on me. I don't know if they are so much hallucinations as they are light trails, moving things out of the corners of my eyes. Perhaps if it was not in conjunction with so many other things, i would pay them no mind... but i cannot ignore them. I just really need some support, because my family has been a source of stress that has only disabled me and my pursuit of happiness thus far.