Information and opinions on Schizophrenia from daolotusbear at SchizophreniaConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503 http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/68274/emotional Thu, 23 Apr 2009 01:31:23 -0400 daolotusbear Brothers and Sisters,       I have lived the illness of schizophrenia for forty-six years. I have had to live with countless visual and auditory hallucinations that have plagued my existence on this Earth. My body and mind has had to experience many physical and mental breakdowns caused by the effects of my illness. I have attempted suicide as many times as I have fingers and toes. I have abused my body using sharp... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/68274/emotional http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18911/hilton Wed, 09 Jan 2008 02:22:00 -0500 daolotusbear The Cardboard HiltonBy Blake HaynerChicago, 1980 The cold wind rattled the walls as I curled up in my makeshift blanket of plastic and newspaper; the Sunday Chicago Tribune pages strewn over my ruddy torn blue jeans. The plastic lay over the newsprint to keep the water out and my unwashed clothes dry. Monday morning came late for me because of the rain and sleet that fell the night before had covered the roof and sides of my self imposed... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18911/hilton http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18909/meds Wed, 09 Jan 2008 01:56:00 -0500 daolotusbear Meds or Not I have been taking a combination of drugs for the past eight years with relative success. Risperdal and Paxil were my first medications. The Risperdal took away all feelings and made me very focused with a side effect of extreme weight gain and subsequently diabetes. Before Risperdal my mood swings were exaggerated from low to high; with auditory hallucinations running my life. I was violent and destructive; having little or no... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18909/meds http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18146/sensuality Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:40:00 -0500 daolotusbear I have an intimate question that I would like to ask the community. I am 47 years old and married to a wonderful woman; we have been together for 15 years. I find it difficult to have a sexual relationship with my wife. We are close and at least best friends. I am attracted to other women and men. I am not gay or bi-sexual. I have lived with schizophrenia all my life and have found it easy to stray from my relationships to other people. I have... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18146/sensuality http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18120/death-card Thu, 20 Dec 2007 16:29:00 -0500 daolotusbear Laying in turmoil on my bed my voice in my head rambling, the credit card bills are too much; you have to pay them off! Do something about this! You're going to have to end the pain. My legs twist my body turns trying to find a comfortable position so that I can fall asleep. Over and over the voice trails on, Get a job! Get a job! You have to do something other than what you're doing! I feel so alone, completely destitute; my mind caving... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18120/death-card http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18095/enlightenmen Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:55:00 -0500 daolotusbear I have lived with the illness of schizophrenia for 44 years, I am 47 now. I remember the voices as early as three and the terror having to follow the voices instructions to the letter. The voice is always accompanied by feelings of dread and violent compulsiveness to act out in ways that will create a wake of destructive behavior resulting in loneliness, depression, pain, and suffering. I have been homeless, unemployed, and destitute. I have had... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18095/enlightenmen