Information and opinions on SchizophreniaConnection from daolotusbear http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503 en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/ http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18911/hilton Wed Jan 09 02:22:00 -0500 2008 daolotusbear The Cardboard HiltonBy Blake HaynerChicago, 1980 The cold wind rattled the walls as I curled up in my makeshift blanket of plastic and newspaper; the Sunday Chicago Tribune pages strewn over my ruddy torn blue jeans. The plastic lay over the newsprint to keep the water out and my unwashed clothes dry. Monday morning came late for me because of the rain and sleet that fell the night before had covered the roof and sides of my self imposed... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18911/hilton http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18909/meds Wed Jan 09 01:56:00 -0500 2008 daolotusbear Meds or Not I have been taking a combination of drugs for the past eight years with relative success. Risperdal and Paxil were my first medications. The Risperdal took away all feelings and made me very focused with a side effect of extreme weight gain and subsequently diabetes. Before Risperdal my mood swings were exaggerated from low to high; with auditory hallucinations running my life. I was violent and destructive; having little or no... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18909/meds http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18146/sensuality Fri Dec 21 12:40:00 -0500 2007 daolotusbear I have an intimate question that I would like to ask the community. I am 47 years old and married to a wonderful woman; we have been together for 15 years. I find it difficult to have a sexual relationship with my wife. We are close and at least best friends. I am attracted to other women and men. I am not gay or bi-sexual. I have lived with schizophrenia all my life and have found it easy to stray from my relationships to other people. I have... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18146/sensuality http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18120/death-card Thu Dec 20 16:29:00 -0500 2007 daolotusbear Laying in turmoil on my bed my voice in my head rambling, the credit card bills are too much; you have to pay them off! Do something about this! You're going to have to end the pain. My legs twist my body turns trying to find a comfortable position so that I can fall asleep. Over and over the voice trails on, Get a job! Get a job! You have to do something other than what you're doing! I feel so alone, completely destitute; my mind caving... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18120/death-card http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18095/enlightenmen Thu Dec 20 00:55:00 -0500 2007 daolotusbear I have lived with the illness of schizophrenia for 44 years, I am 47 now. I remember the voices as early as three and the terror having to follow the voices instructions to the letter. The voice is always accompanied by feelings of dread and violent compulsiveness to act out in ways that will create a wake of destructive behavior resulting in loneliness, depression, pain, and suffering. I have been homeless, unemployed, and destitute. I have had... http://www.healthcentral.com/schizophrenia/c/70503/18095/enlightenmen