I just deleted my last post. I'm sorry to all those who read it, but I was wrong. Boy, I was so right about the being blind to the world bit. Things aren't as bad as they seem. I thought my drugs were meant to be working! Though I had a sorrowful day today, I was very surprised to get an email from him saying he wanted to see me. So, I rang him to set the record straight. I thought it was over! I told him exactly what I thought and he said he was sorry to confuse me... we had a heart to heart, he told me he loved me etc etc, and now I'm happy again. ( I think) I guess one thing about this illness is the loss of reality concerning the emotional aspect- feeling the wrong thing at the wrong time all the time. anyway, I must go and set the record straight with a few others I have given the wrong information to....